So, like many a photographer I spent the last two nights enthralled by Creative Live and the workshop run by Jasmine Star. I drank wine, I ate copious bags of crisps and I scrawled virtually illegible notes (I wish I had nice, neat, colour coded notes but I'm afraid my ever-deteriorating hand doesn't deserve fancy gel pens.) I also cried a fair bit.
I cried because it made me face some of the problems I've been running from/putting off because I am over-worked as it is. I cried because I didn't feel alone in my worries and my stresses and the silly things that I wonder when I'm trying to figure out what to do next. I cried because I know that my business is going to be better for watching it, and I beat myself up for not being able to do that on my own. Isn't that ridiculous? I have no formal photography or business training, Of course I need guidance. My son is not home-schooled so why should my business be?
My business is less than a year old but I need to stop using that as an excuse to put off working for more. Yes, there is time for things to grow and develop, but I have to make sure it's going in the right direction and that starts right now. When I was starting out, I wasn't sure if it was possible to get to where I am now, to be regularly booking weddings and other paid work. I wasn't even sure if I was heading in the direction of success at all and as such, I didn't really think ahead to what kind of success I wanted, what kind of photographer I was going to become. Now, almost a year after taking the scariest first steps of my life, I have learned a great deal about who I am, with or without a camera in my hand and the decisions I made when I wasn't even sure I could do it just don't cut it any more. I've found out that I have a lot to offer and I need to present that better.
The Creative Live seminar has made me stop and evaluate where I have come from, where I am and where I am going with my business. I am pleased with what I've done but in order to make the most of my passion and hard work, I need to make a few changes.
Sorry Sunday sunshine, I'd love to come out and play but I've got a business to grow.